Trapped

Sometimes I feel like I'm a prisoner of my own making... like I'm trapped behind this big glass door in my mind & no matter how hard I try, I can't seem to break it down... or even make it budge. But at the same time, I can see, feel & hear almost everything that they do while they're in control. Sometimes I try to fight it, & sometimes I let them win. Either way, I can't seem to drown out their many voices.

 Georgina's been with me all my life. I guess you could say she's my twisted sister. my evil twin. I was created in her image, & hers alone. I was never as strong or as sick in the head as she hoped I'd be, but the darkness still built up inside of me over the years. It blackened my soul enough to open it up & invite in those belonging to the one man I've ever loved. We could share the pain... & we could become something entirely new.

I created Rebecca to protect myself... & I did it unconsciously. I had no way of knowing how powerful she'd become. I didn't realize that my dark angel was only a part of my life to destroy the one person that I would kill for. Now it's like a battle inside my fucking head... screaming, fighting for control. The thing is... once she takes control, everything goes black. The darkness is becoming all I know.

Everything I Am

Lea-Georgina Taylor